| on goodbyes |
[Dec. 31st, 2009|11:15 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home alone | ] |
| [ | mood |
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Goodbye, 2009. I dub thee a year of discovery, for better or for worse. I'm not in a good place to comment further so we'll leave it at that.
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| Writer's Block: Reflections |
[Dec. 29th, 2009|01:05 pm] |
2009 blew monkey balls. I started the year off in a job that didn't want to work around my fibromyalgia and I had no grounds for help because I couldn't get a doctor (and still can't) to write me a note. And then I got the job at Teavana which was awesome for a while, until Lisa got fired and Jillian apparently thought it was acceptable to curse at people, insult them, write the f-bomb everywhere, and just generally play favorites and be a bitch. I then left that for elements, and oh the joys of working for Tae.
However, one good thing came of that. I met Elizabeth whose memory I will carry with me and still strive myself to be as honest and kind as she was.
I spent a month and a half unemployed and horribly frustrated about finding a job. In a last ditch effort because my bills were coming up, I applied at Nordstrom. Imagine my surprise when they offer me a full time permanent sales position. The surprise continued when I didn't despise them as a corporation like every other one I've ever seen/read anything about it. In fact, I've become more and more impressed with them and how well they take care of their employees and customers. I love this job and my bosses are amazing. No longer do I have anxiety attacks about having to go to work.
The low point? I'd have to say the majority of this year was pretty low for me. Would I want to go through it again? Fuck no. But things are looking up. I do love this job and hopefully I'll be getting my own place in a couple of months. So being optimistic about 2010. |
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[Dec. 29th, 2009|01:23 am] |
So life's pretty uneventful. Which I suppose is good. Bill and I are going on vacation in a couple weeks to Vermont just to relax after the stress of the holidays.
In awesome news, I totally found a GBA copy of FFV for $2.50 at FYE. Haha, take that Squaresoft! I really wanted to replace my FFVI, but for $2.50, how the hell could I refuse?
Speaking of FFVI, I'm having a lot of fun with my TerraxSabin table. I should have an update with a couple of short fics in a day or two. I have 003 Forgiveness done, had started an idea for Regret, but it turned silly so I reassigned it to Absurd. I still know what I want to do for Regret and for Discovery, all of them pretty short ficlets ~500 words or so.
I've been toying around with the idea for a bigger fic, which I'm sure I can still assign to the table just by adding the Terra x Sabin dynamic to it. I've always wanted to write a fic set after the game where something happens to Edgar and Sabin has to take the throne over. I don't know why I'm suddenly obsessed with the idea, I think I just like to torture characters and make them work outside of their element just to see what they'll do. I'll have to put some more thought into it, but yeah.
Anyway, suppose I should go to bed soon. It is 1:30ish. |
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| on Christmas |
[Dec. 25th, 2009|10:10 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | not home :D | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | weary | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Enya - various | ] |
Merry Christmas, everyone. I'm happy to say I got to go to church this morning and enjoyed a new but quite agreeable service, and the day's meals involved Chinese food and pizza ;) Hope it's been a good day for y'all.
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| on birthdays |
[Dec. 23rd, 2009|11:47 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | not home :D | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | soon to be more cooking TV | ] |
Happy birthday, Mom. Last year I think I neglected my yearly post in terms of it being timely, but I have no problem atm, which is good. On the other hand, this year I let my dad's birthday pass without comment, mostly because I was occupied for the better part of the day and there were numerous complications involved. I did send a card, though, which should have arrived in time, and that's unusual considering he's always had lazy children who just combine the occasion with Christmas, given their proximity to each other - we gave up years ago on ever finding him one gift he'd have use for, let alone two.
Anyway, while my mom's birthday goes uncelebrated too in that there are no gifts to buy or calls to make or family to discuss it with, the day is always clearly remembered, at least by me. I sit back and think about how long it's been now, and what the ratio is of years with and years without, and wonder stuff like what she'd think of my life, how different it would've turned out if she hadn't died, and what it would be like to have had the opportunity to know her more fully as a person now that I'm an adult too. I like that I still find time to do that every year, as one small way of honouring her for all she did for and was to me.
This year I have plenty of time for contemplation on this day, and should also be the day I finish some Christmas preparations. Not a lot left to do, but there's one card needing timely completion and one that could stand to wait a bit but if I put it off too long it might fall by the wayside. First though is getting dressed :)
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[Dec. 23rd, 2009|12:06 am] |
Title: The Little Things
Rating: PG because we all love Strago :-D
Fandom: Final Fantasy VI
Characters: Sabin x Terra, Locke, Edgar, Setzer, Cyan, Strago
Spoilers: Takes place post game but no specific spoilers.
Summary: Locke embarrasses Sabin during a poker night with the guys where they all feel the need to give Sabin romantic advice. Although he doesn't necessarily follows their exact advice, he does finally decide to do something.
Notes: First of many, but have to start somewhere. Take a look at the prompts, and I'm happy to take requests if someone gets an awesome plot bunny.
Full table found here.
( “A uh… a gentleman doesn’t… kiss and tell,” ) |
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| And this is what we call insanity. |
[Dec. 20th, 2009|12:46 pm] |
Because I have so much free time on my hands (/sar), I've decided to take on a ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) lover100 challenge. I'm in the mood to start something epic and I'm hoping that this will force me to write since my goal is to get it done by the end of 2010. I've had so little faith in my writing that I've had a terrible time trying to work on my original works, but there's something really gratifying about being able to write and post up fanfiction immediately.
So I'm claiming this table for Sabin and Terra. I went around a lot with who I was going to write with, especially since my original OTP was Virginia/Jet, but I love these two, even if there isn't a huge want for it.
Oh god I'm so insane. Maybe this is why my boss shouldn't call me to tell me that I'll either be coming in late or not at all due to the snow.
Table-B
| 001. | Romance. |
002. | Beauty. |
003. | Forgiveness. |
004. | Regret. |
005. | Discovery. |
| 006. | First Meeting. |
007. | Hardest Truth. |
008. | Resolutions. |
009. | Anything. |
010. | Home. |
| 011. | Intimacy. |
012. | Self-Love. |
013. | Kisses. |
014. | Frustration. |
015. | Pressure. |
| 016. | Absurd. |
017. | Forbidden. |
018. | Honesty. |
019. | Grace. |
020. | Laughter. |
| 021. | Confidence. |
022. | Happiness. |
023. | Sexy. |
024. | Tears. |
025. | Growth. |
| 026. | Sensuality. |
027. | Faith. |
028. | Night. |
029. | Day. |
030. | Innocence. |
| 031. | Music. |
032. | Water. |
033. | Love. |
034. | Ambiguity. |
035. | Act. |
| 036. | Whew. |
037. | Anger. |
038. | Dirt. |
039. | Trust. |
040. | Heat. |
| 041. | Summer Love. |
042. | Patience. |
043. | Opportunity. |
044. | Death. |
045. | Passion. |
| 046. | Healing. |
047. | Life. |
048. | Joy. |
049. | Freedom. |
050. | Bliss. |
| 051. | Dreams. |
052. | Kinky. |
053. | Haunted. |
054. | Emergence. |
055. | Transmogrify. |
| 056. | Magnetic. |
057. | Surreal. |
058. | Passage. |
059. | Lush. |
060. | Could Have. |
| 061. | Would Have. |
062. | Should Have. |
063. | Hunger. |
064. | Need. |
065. | Want. |
| 066. | Take. |
067. | Have. |
068. | Mine. |
069. | Yours. |
070. | Lubricious. |
| 071. | Lugubrious. |
072. | Perspective. |
073. | Capering. |
074. | Empathy. |
075. | Sympathy. |
| 076. | Mirth. |
077. | Almost. |
078. | Always. |
079. | Surprise. |
080. | Warmth. |
| 081. | Heartache. |
082. | Ghosts. |
083. | Break-Up. |
084. | Make-Up. |
085. | Diary. |
| 086. | Voice. |
087. | Biggest Fear. |
088. | Warning. |
089. | Everything. |
090. | Nothing. |
| 091. | Failure. |
092. | Success. |
093. | Glimpse. |
094. | Sanctuary. |
095. | Picture. |
| 096. | Writer‘s Choice. |
097. | Writer‘s Choice. |
098. | Writer‘s Choice. |
099. | Writer‘s Choice. |
100. | Writer‘s Choice. |
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| on travel |
[Dec. 20th, 2009|11:02 am] |
Bags are packed, fingers are crossed, soon to be departing. Wish me luck. |
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